A Love Letter
(Written by a client, edited by me, shared with permission)
My Dearest Addiction,
It's with a heart heavy with conflicting emotions that I put pen to paper to address you. You, who have been both my greatest love and my most bitter enemy. You've woven a complicated tapestry within my life, one where love and hate intermingle like threads woven with threads made of unspeakable peace and utter drapavity.
Oh, how you've whispered sweet seductions into my ears, luring me into your embrace with promises of escape from pain and troubles. From myself. In those moments of vulnerability, you've been my refuge, my sanctuary from the harsh realities of life. Your embrace felt warm and comforting, like the softest of blankets on a cold winter's night.
Yet, it's precisely in that warmth that I've found myself entangled in your grasp. The love I once felt for you has transformed into a consuming need, an insatiable hunger that gnaws at my very soul. It’s like my bones itch. You've taken more from me than I ever intended to give, leaving me stripped of my dignity and self-respect.
In your presence, I've witnessed the darkest aspects of myself, the side I never wanted to acknowledge. You've made me hate the person I become when I'm under your spell – the lies, the deceit, the loss of control. The euphoria you promise is always fleeting, leaving me in the cold, harsh light of reality, drowning in a sea of regret.
And yet, here I stand, torn between the love I once felt for you and the hatred that festers within me. I yearn for the days when I could simply walk away, severing the ties that bind us. But it's not that easy. Breaking free from your clutches is a battle of epic proportions, one that I'm determined to win.
For while you may have seduced me with your false promises, I have a love that burns brighter – the love for myself and the hope for a future unburdened by your presence. It's a love that fuels my strength, my determination, and my resilience.
So, my dearest addiction, know that our relationship is not one of unconditional love. It's a tumultuous, complex dance of love and hate, one that I'm committed to untangling. I will continue to fight, to seek the help and support I need to break free from your grip. It won't be easy, but it's a battle I must wage.
In the end, I hope to find a love for life itself that eclipses the allure of your false promises. It's a love worth fighting for, and I'm ready to take that journey.
Yours in the struggle…
